I feel so discouraged. For reasons I don't presently wish to discuss I am having more setbacks with my mission papers. I just want to go! I know that there are people out there who need the gospel of Jesus Christ, and I don't want them to have to wait a second longer than they have to. It is something that has blessed my life so much and I don't want anyone to be without it. I went to the temple today, and I got to do twenty five names! Needless to say I was feeling pretty drowned afterwards, but the feeling that entered into my soul while I was in the temple, for the people who I was doing names for, the people who were there with me, my family, and the people I will go and serve on my mission was such a powerful wave of love that I couldn't remember feeling happier. This happens every time I go to the temple. Then hours after I get back, Satan finds a way into my soul to crush the feeling that I had. It is the worst feeling in the world to feel like even through all your desire to go, you still have to wait. Everything in the Lords time, line upon line, precept on precept...patience is not something I have ever been good at. For now I guess all I can do is 'Cleave unto God as he cleaveth unto you' Jacob 6:5, and pray for patience.

I should study for my biology test, but there are so many better things to do...like mourn the fact that I didn't study for my biology test last night because I fell asleep. Posting on my blog works too. Or I can sit here and just look forlornly at my biology book sitting in front of me. I know I should open that book, but I am afraid of what's inside :( ugh stupid freakin' biology!

Just so you know, French drunk guys are way funnier than American drunk guys. And they like to give you lots of hugs and kisses...yeah next door neighbor was so drunk he couldn't even open his front door. Quite the interesting night! :)

Just another late night with my girls! I love my roommates I couldn't have asked for anyone better! Just hang out every night telling stories and jokes and laughing until my chest and brain hurt! I love them!!!!! :D

I am just feeling incredibly sad today. My parents went to my favorite place in the whole world while I was left here all alone. I stayed so I could work at a new job in which I may not even be able to start until next week. I have lots of friends who are back but no one is answering. I can't turn in my mission papers until after I get a root canal. I am feeling incredibly overwhelmed and I can't help feeling like I have done something wrong. I feel like maybe I didn't actually pray hard enough about this job, or maybe a mission. I was told that once I turn in my mission papers bad things will start to happen, I just didn't realize that what happens most happens internally. The Lord is my light, and it is upon him alone sometimes that I must stand.

I believe in Christ—my Lord, my God! My feet he plants on gospel sod. I’ll worship him with all my might; He is the source of truth and light.

I really don't need more friends. I just need better ones.