I am just feeling incredibly sad today. My parents went to my favorite place in the whole world while I was left here all alone. I stayed so I could work at a new job in which I may not even be able to start until next week. I have lots of friends who are back but no one is answering. I can't turn in my mission papers until after I get a root canal. I am feeling incredibly overwhelmed and I can't help feeling like I have done something wrong. I feel like maybe I didn't actually pray hard enough about this job, or maybe a mission. I was told that once I turn in my mission papers bad things will start to happen, I just didn't realize that what happens most happens internally. The Lord is my light, and it is upon him alone sometimes that I must stand.