PANCAKES!

ha ha tomorrow I am going to the ACT and then going out to get free pancakes with Lexi!!!!! ha ha ha ha ha ha ha life is sooooooo great!!!!! :D

Hope

I hope that someday everybody will learn from their mistakes.
I hope that everyone will stop being stupid and start being nice.
I hope people quit being selfish.
I hope that nobody sees asking for help as weakness.
I hope for lots of things!
I just want all of my best friends in the whole world to know how much that I love them!!!! Life is crazy and I go through crazy stupid mood swings. but you guys are what help me and make me remain sane. You talk through all of the irrational crap that I think all the time. And You listen to me when I just need to talk about how mad I am at everybody and everything. I know I have bad days but you guys are so amazing!!!!! I just hope that I am as good a friend to all of you as you are to me!!!!
This is my post about hope. This last two days has been an emotional roller coaster. I have had so many negative thoughts and energy running through my body. But at the end of it all, you look out to the world and once again you are surprised to see that there are good people out there. People that feel like you do about life in some aspects. Everybody feels like you do sometimes and you just need to learn to rely on your friends and your heavenly father to help you through.
I know I am moody.
I know I am mean.
I know I am selfish.
But I hope to be everything that I am capable of. Because at the end of the day, I am capable of a lot.

Okay and just one more thing I just want everybody to know that I feel blessed. I don't know why all of us were blessed to come here to earth at this time and live in this nation and in this gospel, and to have all of the truth. But you know what I think it has something to do with the fact that heavenly father really does love us, and he knew that we could be strong and bring others to his gospel. He trusted us, and we need to show him that we are, and always have been worthy of that trust. I feel so happy now that the mood swings are over. I am going to sing for a YW thing, and I really didn't want to. However I now realize that my voice, my ability to perform music is just another blessing from God and I think that we should use the gifts that he has given us to help bless others. So now I am happy about going and singing.

p.s. next time I promise I will write about normal stuff ha ha I swear I sound totally bipolar or something right now!

Life of a teenage Malynne!

Okay so basically people usually start out their blogs by saying things like, 'hello, my name is Malynne, and this is my first time doing a blog' however it is not...I just decided that I needed to show you guys another side of me that you guys don't usually get to see. Also because I just really need to talk to someone and find out if anybody else in this whole entire freaking world feels the same way that I do about anything! Maybe I am just being emotional...who really knows what I am right now all I know is that I am quite unhappy about life. I don't know maybe I just like it to much and that's why I don't like it...if that even makes sense. I just wish that I could always stop being the one who sits in the fish tank and watches all of the other fish go to lovely little homes while I am stuck here in this stupid blasted fish tank all by myself waiting until someone wants me. p.s. if you haven't picked this up yet this is about my relationship status. I don't know maybe it is because I haven't had a crush on anybody for sooooooooo long like not since last June have I even liked anybody. you know like the cute kind of liking when you get butterflies in your stomach and you just want to be around them all the time; you hear their name and you just want to run around in circles. Yea that's where I am at, and it is completely pathetic since I know it isn't going anywhere and yea I don't even know why I care so much I mean he is just a stupid boy right?!!! Ah I feel so pathetic, because I don't want him to know. I want him so want me back so bad but I am to afraid and too much of a coward to even hint that I like him. Nobody will ever know who I like because deep down I am really good at keeping my own secrets. He will never know because I make it seem like friend status is perfectly fine with me. Which I guess it is...I would rather have that than not have him at all. I don't know do you guys see my dilemma? I am just going around in circles, 'I like him', 'but he's not worth it', 'but he's so perfect' ugh!!!! why can't I get over myself? I guess I am afraid of rejection more than just about anything. I feel like I reject myself enough why would I need outside forces just affirming what I feel on the inside? Okay yea well this is probably more than any of you guys wanted to know about me. I just feel like I want somebody to acknowledge that it's okay that I feel this way you know...because at the moment it feels so completely inappropriate and out of line that I shouldn't have shared it. But anyways there is your inside to Malynne's patheticness.