Saturday, September 22, 2012

I need to stop mourning what my life was like before, and move forward. Because no matter how hard I want to, I can only go forward not back. I need to grow up, because I am an adult now not a child. I guess what I learned since moving is that it's okay for adults to be scared too, they aren't the superheros I thought they all were growing up. Everybody has fears, it just turns out I am a lot more scared than I thought I was...

Saturday, September 15, 2012

The temple

So I went to the Brigham city temple open house yesterday. It was incredible! definitely one of the most stunning temples I have ever seen. I went with all of my extended family and so I had all of my little cousins with me. Crew had this pamphlet that they gave him at the beginning, and he would go into every room and flip through the pamphlet until he found the picture that corresponded to the room we were in, then he would jump up and down and run to anyone close and hold it up and say 'read this please.' It was so cute, he even asked random strangers who most willingly obliged, I mean who could say no to that? And Emery my baby cousin she would get upset and cry until my mom started showing her the pictures of Jesus, she would stare at them for as long as we would let her. Kennedy kept asking me to explain rooms to her, so I got to explain the baptismal font and the mural room and the mirrors in the sealing room, and the celestial room. When we walked into the temple I started to explain about the terrestrial telestial and celestial kingdoms and she was like 'oh yeah I know about those. So when we all go to heaven, this is where we are gonna hang out huh?' and it was the sweetest thing. The simplicity of children will never cease to amaze me, it was so simply put, but so profound it was incredible. Then we decided that we were going to dinner. We drove all the way around Brigham city to find a Mexican food place, but everything was closed. We ended up driving all the way down to Layton except that everything down there closes at nine! so we drove around for a while until we finally found Outback Steakhouse. We were a party of 18 so it was a tight squeeze. A party of 18 takes forever and a day to get their food so we were there until like 10:00 PM and then still had to drive home. I slept the whole way so it was great. Except I am super sick so I couldn't breathe the whole night. Ugh I hate being sick! It is so dumb! I never want to leave my bed but then I have to go to work and school and other dumb but necessary stuff! Anyway, the Lord is gracious and has blessed us with beautiful temples. We should utilize them and visit often so that we can be with our families forever. :)

Thursday, September 13, 2012

The best day at work ever!!!!!!!

Um, so yesterday I was checking at the Orem Maceys and this guy came through my line and started to like fall over and his eyes were rolling into he back of his head. I kept trying to talk to him to get him to regain consciousness and he finally did and so I asked if he was okay and he was like 'yeah I'm okay.' He then went to go and get his wallet out of his pocket and started to pull his card out, but then he dropped his wallet and staggered away towards the door and totally collapsed! So me being the total airhead that I am, stayed at my cash register and said 'um Harken that guy totally just biffed it' Harken turned around and said 'WHAT!' By this time the man has stood back up stagger 20 more feet and totally face planted it right outside the store successfully breaking his nose and splitting his lip open. At that point I actually ran over there and another woman called 911 while I and this other guy are down on our hands and knees supporting him. He woke up and then tried to stand up, the other guy holding him like pinned him down while I ran inside to get my manager Teresa. She went running outside with a wad of tissues for him. He kept trying to get up and leave and the other man was practically sitting on him by the time that the ambulance showed up. They questioned him and the man was talking all weird, and then the police showed up and told me that they had to question me too because I was the first one to see him fall. So I got to sit in the police car and have a soda while I told about his weirdo guy who totally passed out. The guy was in the ambulance and they were checking out his face and he kept saying 'I just want my groceries' and then he kept yelling that he 'Just wanted to go home' and it was incredibly weird. They asked him if he had ever done any drugs and he got super freaked out and pushed one of the EMT'S so the police chief got in on this action and handcuffed him to the ambulance. Then they asked me if I wanted to take them up to the security room so that we could watch the cameras because at this point they had narrowed it down to a stroke, a seizure, or some hard core drugs. So I went up to the security room with the police chief and got to watch the video of him and like creep on him as he went through the whole store. Then he walked into an aisle all by himself looked around seeing no one he pulled a needle out of his pocket and shot up right there because he thought no one could see him. And because he was so high his heart couldn't handle it and he passed out. :) um pretty much the best day at work that ever happened. I got to get interviewed by the police and watch security cameras and get paid to watch some guy be a total freak! IT WAS AWESOME!

Monday, September 10, 2012

Right now, I am very sad and lonely. I miss being able to walk down the halls of school and know everyone's name. I miss having lunch in the choir room and seeing all of my friends on a regular basis. I miss staying at school for rehearsals. I miss singing. I miss feeling like I had too many friends to buy Christmas presents for. I miss feeling good at something. Now, I know no one as I walk down the hall. Now I usually eat lunch by myself in my condo. Now I go home after school and do homework all day. Now I sing in my car, that's it. Now I feel like I have so little friends that I spend almost everyday alone. Now I am not good at anything. I am just another face in the crowd who isn't really particularly good at anything in life I am just trying to be okay at everything. I don't want to be just a pretty face in the crowd I want to go and do something amazing with my life to help the rest of the world. I am sorry for the pity me post, I am just feeling very lost and alone. I know I have the Lord and he has given me more than I can even thank him for. Well I have to continue to put my trust in the Lord and pray to not feel stupid and alone like I have for the last week.

Friday, September 7, 2012

Well in the last two weeks I the best roommates in the world, spent over $500 on textbooks, gotten a new job, failed a quiz in western religion, written an essay, learned like 8 bajillion new words, gone camping, paid rent for the first time, bought new glasses, learned how to cook rice with a cookie sheet as a substitute for a lid, and a bunch of other random stuff that I don't remember. Anyway my roommates are freaking awesome! Autumn was told that she looks like Taylor Swift so she bought a Taylor Swift wig...just because she could. We eat grilled cheese sandwiches all the time with Autumn's grilled cheese maker, and my cheese, it is awesome! And I see all my friends from high school like every day! I love it! :D I pretty much just love college a lot!